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Last night was good...

I can't recall ever being in any form of counseling before, so last night was my first experience, as far as I know. It was good. It was nice to be with other people who had a clue about what we were going through. There were people there in all different situations, from infant death to multiple miscarriages, and despite the differences between everyone's story - there were a number of similarities as well.

After the meeting, I have to admit, I was handling my emotions far more poorly than I had been previously. It was hard to hear everyone's stories, and not have your own feelings and emotions dredged back to the surface, but it was still a good experience. I'm honestly very glad we went, and I fully expect we'll go back next month.

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Anonymous said…
Josh & Nikki - Just want to let you even though I never had the privilege of meeting or holding Aaron, he will forever have a special place in my heart. I think about the two of you often. Hope to see you soon so that I can give each of you a big hug and an extra special hug for Aaron.
Love - Carol
9:29 AM
Stephanie823 said…
Just want to let you know that I am really proud of you guys and admire you both. I'm so glad you are taking care of yourselves. Meeting others who have been through similar situations will be SO beneficial for you - even though it does cause emotions to come to the surface again which is hard.... Still think about you guys constantly.

Stephanie923 (DWLZ)
1:14 PM
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