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10 Weeks

Hi my sweet baby boy!

Today is your 10 week Heaven Day. Last night we were with the grief counselor and she told us about another lady who said "Heaven Day" rather than anniversary (the standard) or "Angel Day" and I decided that I like Heaven Day best. I miss you so very much today. Wednesdays get tough for me, especially after lunch time. I guess because you went to heaven around 1:00 - just after lunch time. I was looking at the picture I have on my desk at work. I love that picture and every time I see the frame (it says "Smiles for Mommy") I just picture your dear sweet face smiling down on me.

I hope that you got a good laugh out of our balloon launch and watching us at Dorney on Friday. I told Daddy that I bet you were having a good time watching us have fun on Friday. Every day we get further from the due date I know that you are definitely not coming home - not that I didn't know that before but it's just more...final.

Last night I had a dream about you. I was watching you play. I'm not even sure what you were playing. You were running around with a bunch of other little kids. You looked up and saw me, came running over to me and leapt into my arms. You gave me a big hug and a big kiss and said, "I love you Mommy! I miss you, but I am having a lot of fun! You don't need to worry about me." I gave you a kiss and told you I loved you and sent you back to play.

I once talked to someone about some of the dreams I have had and he told me that God knows what your every need and every time I have a dream with you in it - it's when I need it the most. I love meeting you in my dreams!

I love you Aaron and as always I am sending you a million hugs and kisses.

See you in my dreams, peanut. Now go play!

XOXO,
Mommy

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Anonymous said…
You are such a beautiful person Nikki! Every time I read these entries I am amazed at the two of you. Aaron was very blessed to have you two as parents.

Love,
Tracey
9:13 AM
Anonymous said…
You are so lucky to see your precious baby Aaron in your dreams. What a nice gift from God.

Love, Mom W
9:59 PM
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