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17 Weeks

Dear Aaron,

Hi sweetie! Happy 17 week Heaven Day baby boy! It has been another busy week. I was just thinking today that I wish I didn't have to be this busy, because if you were here I would be busy with you. I wouldn't have time for some of the things going on. Plus some of the things that are keeping me busy are things that I'm doing in memory of you - so I wouldn't have to do any of that either if you were still here with me.

On Sunday me, daddy, Great-Aunt Roxie, Tracey, and your cousins Sophie and Claire did a "Walk to Remember". It was really nice. Bigger than I thought it might be. I was sad at first to see just how many people have lost a baby. We did a lap around the lake. As we were walking Roxie said, "Aaron would like this lake". I agreed and said you would have loved feeding the ducks and watching them. I asked Sophie what she thought you would do and she said you'd try to dive into the lake. Tracey and I told her there was no way I would have let you do that :)

After the walk there was a candle service and when they called your name we took up a lit candle and placed it with others. Sophie and Claire came up with us and put ornaments the decorated for you on a tree. (Daddy and I snagged those ornaments at the end so we can have them for our tree this year). It was just a really nice day. The bonus was that the Eagles won later that afternoon. Now if only the Phillies could make it into the playoffs your daddy would be very happy!

On Monday, I am giving a brief speech at a golf tournament about "our story" so that means a lot more people will be finding out about you. I hope I can do it ok. I am still trying to think exactly what I want to say. I am quite sure I will come up with something though - I never am at a loss for words when I am talking about you.

I love you Aaron - Bigger than the whole wide world!
Mommy
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Anonymous said…
It's been a tough week for me - I'm really missing my precious baby grandson. I will be with Mommy on Monday to cheer her on!

Love, Grandma W
8:36 PM
Anonymous said…
Good luck on Monday . . . you will do a wonderful job. You have a beautiful (but sad) story to tell and you always have a "way" with words.

I am so glad we went with you guys on Sunday . . . it was really special to be part of the Walk to Remember!

Love you two,
Tracey
XOXO
10:56 PM
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