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18 Weeks

Dear Aaron,

Hi peanut, Happy 18 week Heaven Day! I realize a few days ago was also the 4 month mark. It's hard to think right now if you were still here we'd have a "5" month old at home (you'd be 5 months old, but probably more on track with 2 months since you were so premature). I wonder where you would stand developmentally - would you be smiling etc. or still very newborn like? Would you have other outstanding health issues? I guess I really don't have to worry about all that. I know now you are absolutely perfect.

Today I got a really neat gift in memory of you. The PR/Advertising firm I work with through work named a star in the international Star Registry after you. The naming date was dated for your birthday 4-28-06. What a cool thing on a nice starry night to be able to look up and know there is a star up there named after you. What a wonderful way to just make us stop and remember you.

I spoke earlier this week at a Golf Tournament about our story and why you were born so early etc. It was a very nice event. Telling the story was a little harder than I thought it might be. When I looked up and saw a lot of the men crying in choked me up. I guess I never realized our story had that much of an impact on others (outside of family and friends etc.) I want to do my part to make sure other mommies and babies don't have to be apart from each other and I want people to know you and know what a sweet little baby you are! Since I can't show you off I'll just talk about you! I love you Aaron! Meet me in my dream:)

Love you more than than the number of stars in the sky,
Mommy
XOXO

Comments

Anonymous said…
Precious baby Aaron is our star! Nikki told me about this gift earlier today - as she told me, I turned to look out my office window and a butterfly was fluttering right in front of my window. The signs we see that remind us of Aaron are numerous and amazing.

Love to all of you. Mom W
Stephanie823 said…
I wish I could have heard your speech, Nikki. I knew you would do an amazing job talking about Aaron and raising awareness for such an important cause.

Stephanie
Anonymous said…
There won't be a starry night that goes by that we won't think of our little Aaron! He certainly was a star and we can see that star in your eye every time you talk about him.

Love you,
T
XOXO

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