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So, Christmas, huh?

Well, the first post-Aaron Christmas has come and gone, and let me tell you - it was a doozy. From breaking down during Silent Night ("sleep in heavenly peace", anyone?), to visiting Aaron's interment site on Christmas morning, to opening up the beautiful gifts of a calendar made with photos of Aaron or a compiled, bound, 4-volume set of this blog printed out for DrummerWife and I, to crying together as we read all of your messages on the couch before bed last night.

It was a difficult few days for us. The feelings of missing out on something - like there was something we should have been doing - was strong for both of us, I believe.

Christmas is going to be hard forever, I'm afraid. But this one was the worst. It can only get easier from here.

Merry Christmas, Aaron. I hope it was a good one in Heaven, Little Guy.

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Anonymous said…
Thank you for spending Christmas Eve with us. I know it wasn't easy for you and and Aaron was thought about, talked about and missed very much. I was glad to be able to share the day with you and share my thoughts through a note to Aaron. I wish you peace.

Love,
Roxie
8:44 AM
Anonymous said…
Christmas was very hard for all of us - I cannot imaging how hard it was for both of you. I was amazed and happy of how much Aaron was talked about and shared by all. Our Christmas was by no means complete without him, but he is truly loved and remembered by all. Love, Mom W
9:49 AM
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