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So What if I'm 9 Months Behind DrummerWife?

While it only took DrummerWife about 2 days to have a dream about Aaron that she could remember, it took me a total of about 9 months. Saturday night, I had the best dream - the three of us were all in our car, driving somewhere (obviously). DrummerWife was behind the wheel, and Aaron was in the back in his car-seat. For the duration of the dream, I just kept turning around to look into the backseat and make faces at Aaron, to make him smile and giggle. If I had to guess, he was about a year old in the dream, but I honestly can't remember what he looked like in the dream.

It was great though...to feel like a family for a few minutes at least, even in dream form. Hopefully some day I'll dream about holding him, or playing with him. :)

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Anonymous said…
That's great. I'm glad you finally had the experience of seeing him. God bless you!

Roxie
10:02 AM
Anonymous said…
What a nice dream! I truly wish I could dream of Aaron. Maybe there is hope my dreams yet! Love, mom w
6:32 PM
Anonymous said…
Maybe that was Aaron's way of letting you know that even though you can't hold him and play with him (because you were in the front seat) you can still make him smile and laugh.
5:08 PM
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