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42 Weeks

Dear Aaron,

Hi peanut! It's been kind of a rough week. One year ago, on March 20, we went for the big ultrasound. It's when we found out you were a boy. Knowing that made everything switch from, "we're having a baby!" to, "we having a boy!". It was so neat knowing that. It gave us time to plan for you specifically. It's when we started our registry, picked what would be your nursery theme etc. Tuesday night I was kind of upset because I couldn't remember what we picked at your theme. Your daddy reminded me that it was Noah's Ark, with nice bright colors and lots of animals. It seemed like such a big decision at the time. I also wondered this week for the first time if anyone actually bought anything off of that list. Once you were born and in the hospital I was so focused on you and getting you better that none of that mattered. Your daddy and I had such a good support system I knew that I would not have to worry about any of that, and if it got close to time to bring you home, somehow a nursery would get done and stocked. Your daddy and I were lucky, because there were a lot of things we just never had to worry about. We were able to just focus our time on you and that was the most important thing of all.

I love you Aaron, bigger than the whole wide world.

Mommy
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Anonymous said…
I never bought anything off the registry but I knew what I wanted to buy. I remember when you called me or wait I called you right when you were leaving the doctors office because I couldn't wait for you to call me. I went to Target that night and bought you a cute outfit and baseball hat. There is nothing more important then spending time with your family and no matter what no one was going to let you and Josh worry about anything else last year other then being with Aaron. That made me feel good knowing I could help and knowing at one time there was so much that we had to take a step back. This goes to show you again how special you both are and what a blessing Aaron is! :-)
Hugs to you both,
Love,
Hanna
11:13 AM
Anonymous said…
I'm with Hanna....and Hanna, what a sweet and good friend you are to Nikki. I knew what I wanted to buy and I kept telling myself there will be time....there will be time...

Love to you both.
10:44 AM
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