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Letter to Aaron - September 19

Dear Aaron,

Hi baby boy! It's been about a month since I last wrote here, but things have mainly been the same. Not too much new to report. Daddy and I are getting ready to go on vacation. This is our first planned vacation since you were born (we did have an unplanned vacation last year to the beach right after your memorial service, but that was because Grandma, Grandpa, Aunt Jess and Uncle Dan already had a beach house reserved). This time we have been planning for quite some time and we are going to Disney. This trip has been a long time in the making. Grammy and PopPop wanted to take daddy and I for a while, then I got pregnant so we kind of put the trip on hold. Then we started planning for you to go with us. Now, it's back to just us going again. My how plans change. I am really looking forward to going...I have never been there, but today I can't stop thinking what it would be like to take you there. I know some people are worried because there are going to be kids everywhere, but I am okay with that...heck, it's Disney, of course there are kids everywhere. At times like this sometime I am glad to see other kids, because I can find one that would be about your age and see what they are doing and at least know what you might be doing. Like I said, I am very glad for vacation, but just wishing right now that it was going to be with you.

So, there is a bit of good timing, because right after we get back we will be participating in the "Walk to Remember" for the second year. It's weird that things are repeating now. We really liked the event last year. It was a great way to remember you and all the other babies that have left us way too soon.

Yesterday I did an interview with the March of Dimes on a local radio station and got to once again tell your story. I always love telling people about you, peanut. I like people to know how much you meant to all of us and the things that we do to continue to remember you.

I love you baby boy! I know I'll be thinking about you tons (more than usual) while we're on vacation. Maybe we can do Disney together in my dreams.

Lots of love, hugs and kisses!
Mommy
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