20 Weeks

Dear Aaron,

Happy 20 Week Heaven Day peanut. These past couple days have been rough on me. I have been missing you so terribly much. The holidays are getting closer and closer and its hard to take. We had a very nice time on Daddy's birthday last week though. I gave your daddy and figurine called "New Dad" to remember you that day.

Now Halloween is coming...but before you get the wrong idea I will tell you that your mommy really doesn't like Halloween - it's a dumb "holiday" as far as I am concerned. However, I would have dressed you up when you were younger - and especially as a baby. The costumes are just too darn cute!!! I saw the CUTEST costume. A little fuzzy duckling - it might have been a little big for you this year. Then I saw the cutest Tootsie Roll costume that was for an infant. I would have bought it for you (unless I could have found a peanut). I would have taken tons of pictures. We would have drug you around to see friends and family in it. Oh and your daddy - he probably would have complained and said it was not needed etc. (but deep down he would think you were absolutely adorable to). Over the top? Probably. Fun - eh, you would probably hate being in it and cry a lot. Something I wanted to do - YES! YES! YES! I would have taken you crying and in tears just to show people how cute you were. So I am not delusional - I know how it would most likely go - but I would still do it! And might I remind you your mommy hates Halloween :) Mommy and Daddy do love Thanksgiving and Christmas - so if Halloween is a hurdle, then I don't want to think about what is to come.

I love you sweetheart and I miss you.

Hugs and Kisses,
Mommy

Comments

Anonymous said…
Hang in there Nikki - those who are here and love you will get you through the holidays - it won't be easy, but we'll do it.

Love you, Mom
Anonymous said…
Mom is absolutely right Nikki. We all love you and are very sensitive to what lies ahead. Lean on us..forge ahead...make some new memories. God will use us to help you and Josh get through the tough times.

Love you sweetie, Roxie
Anonymous said…
Hey Nikki and Josh. I look forward to reading your blog everyday. I love how you talk to Aaron and talk about Aaron. I look up to you guys when I am with my daughter. You have tought me so much. I'm here for you anytime, Holiday or not you can lean on me. Lydia and I still pray for you and for Aaron everynight before bed! xoxoxo!!!!

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