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37 Weeks

Dear Aaron,

Hi baby boy! Happy 37 week Heaven Day! We had a heck of a snow storm today. Not nearly as bad as it's been in some places, but bad for us. Daddy and I both ended up spending the day at home. We thought it would be nice at first since it was Valentine's Day and all, but then realized we would have to spend most of the day shoveling. Let me tell you, that was some HEAVY wet snow out there. Somewhere during hour number 3 I started thinking about you. What it would be like to let you see you first snow fall...get you all bundled up just to snap a couple of pictures. I was thinking about how you would react to the snow on you face (not that we would have let you out that long at all), but it sure would have been cute to see you discover something new. That is why I can never go long without thinking about you...I always think about how you would react to things or what it would be like to let you see things for the first time. Then, I have to admit very selfishly that I was thinking if you were here I would be able to be out shoveling like that because I would have had to be inside taken care of you ;-) I am not sure daddy would have let me get away with that because it took us about four hours (2 hours a break and then 2 more) with both of us working, we would have had to take turns most likely outside and taking care of you. Our first snow day with you would have been lots of fun though...I know it would have.

Hope your making snowmen and snow angels up there pumpkin...I know there is someone up there that can show you how. I love you Aaron.

Millions of kisses and a great big snowy hug,
Mommy

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Anonymous said…
I immediately thought of pulling Aaron on a baby sled (though this weather was probably too cold for that. Then I always think that Cindy Farnam is probably teaching Aaron all the "firsts" for all of us! Love, Mom W

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