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Can't let it go completely...

I saw Josh's last post and got a little sad. I am not sure I am willing to let this site just go away...not yet anyway. I have actually been writing letters to Aaron on a (mostly) weekly basis. I just have not been posting them. For some reason when a year came (and went) I just figured people might be tired of it or sometimes I felt like it was expected. It was SO healing for me to write letters and share them with you all. Your comments are always so nice to read as well...like I said I figured at the one year mark we were kind of expected to get over it. After a couple recent conversations I have had with my mother, mother-in-law and Josh I realize that this is not the case. I would like to keep posting. I don't think it will be every week, maybe not even every other. But It will probably still be a couple times a month. I also appreciate the support and all the continued support. We are healing and it is good, but sometimes healing can be a bit scary as well. I have a letter I have been working on for this week. When I finish it up I will post it either today or tomorrow.

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Anonymous said…
I still log on once a week to see if there is a new post. Even though I see you both frequently, your posts have been healing for me to read. I am happy that you believe us when we say a year does not indicate "it's time to get over it". You will never get over it and not a day goes by in my work day or my personal time when I am not asked, "how are your daughter and son-in-law doing". Everyone knows that what you have been through will continue to be a lifelong journey - for you and many of us.

I love you both! And....miss my grandbaby Aaron.

Love, Mom W
8:28 PM
Anonymous said…
I just wanted to say that you're still in my thoughts and prayers.
11:17 AM
Anonymous said…
I am glad that you are still writing letters to Aaron. I agree with your mom; it takes a lifetime to get over something like this.
I only know about you through a friend, but I came across the e-mail she sent me with your website as I was cleaning out my inbox and I was curious to see if the blog was still here. I'm glad it is; and I'm glad to hear that you are healing.
You will continue to be in my prayers.
6:37 PM
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