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23 Weeks

Dear Aaron,

Happy 23 week Heaven Day sweet pea! I hope that you are doing well. So much is going here. Changes everywhere. I am not sure that I needed more changes, but I guess I got them. This week I can't help but remembering that it was this time last year that I got pregnant. That makes me so incredibly sad. I did not even know it yet, but you were already being formed inside of me. Now here we are a year later and yet you are no longer here with us. Also, last night it occurred to me...I have been so hung up on this job thing, being laid off and all - I said to your daddy that it would all be different right now if you were here. I would have taken a layoff with open arms, because it would have meant more time with you. All day with you. But now instead of that I was nervous and worried about what I would do.

The good news is that I did get a new job. I will have to take a couple of weeks off, but that will be okay. It gives me some time to get things in order. Plus that holiday thing we've been talking about for you - we have all the details (I think your daddy will be posting them tomorrow) and I can work on that.

I miss you Aaron. I can't believe that all of this began a year ago. I can't believe you aren't here for me to rock to sleep or cuddle with...I just can't believe the course of this whole year. I love you pumpkin! Meet me in my dreams!

Hugs and Kisses,
Mommy
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Anonymous said…
To Aaron's mommy - you have certainly had a lot to deal with in 2006! We are all here for you and Josh! Love, mom w
7:49 AM
Anonymous said…
This year has been full of twists and turns, Nikki....and you & Josh have handled it all with amazing strength. You're both an inspiration and a blessing to all of us.
Love, Roxie
11:01 PM
Anonymous said…
Once again you melted my heart my dear Nikki! 2006 has been a tough year (with twists and turns as your mom said). Know that we are all here waiting with open arms to help you guys in whatever you need! You have the most amazing strength and faith!

I love ya,
Tracey
XOXO
10:14 AM
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