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9 Weeks

Dear Aaron,

Hi peanut! Another Wednesday...another week. This week might have been your birthday. Mommy's due date was August 4th - this Friday. This week is a little tougher on me. I should be anxiously awaiting your arrival, but you've been here, made an impact on people's lives and have been gone for 9 weeks. I can hardly believe it.

Tonight, daddy and I were talking about expectations we had for you. It was an assignment that our grief counselor gave us. Daddy talked a lot about when you were older and how the two of you could play catch, you could teach your younger brother or sister things, etc. I couldn't quit thinking about right now I would be getting ready to hold you for the first time, kiss you for the first time, and see you for the first time. Don't get me wrong, I couldn't be happier that I already held you, kissed you, snuggled with you, sang to you and told you all of our stories, it's just I wish you were still here and we'd be getting ready to bring you home from the NICU for the first time.

On Friday, we are going to have a little celebration for your due date. We're going to go to the church and spend some quiet time, time talking about you, and just remembering you. Once we are done we're going to go outside an let go of some balloons with notes attached to them. I know you'll be there with us and keep your eyes open for those balloons :-)

I love you buddy - I'm sending you a million hugs and kisses! See you in my dreams!

XOXO,
Mommy

Comments

Anonymous said…
To my children - we share in your list of expectations, but were also very glad to have had the chance know our beautiful grandson.

Love, mom and dad w
Nikki and Josh,
You both continue to be in our thoughts and prayers as this Friday approaches. It sounds like you have a nice day planned that will be reflective and a nice way to celebrate your precious baby boy. Please know that you and Aaron are not forgotten...nine weeks later or ever.
All our Best,
Heather (Heather in Oregon), Jeff and Ethan
Anonymous said…
We all miss you Aaron.
Especially your mom and dad.
We're glad you are healthy now.
Soon and very soon...

Love, Todd, Cindy, Alex, and Michael
Anonymous said…
Baby Aaron today is your day. We love you and remember you and hold you close in our hearts. We miss you terribly, but we are also so glad you are comfortable in God's arms. We thank God for letting us meet you for a short while. Don't worry we are trying real hard to take care of your parents and we will especially surround them with love today and this weekend. They miss you so much! So keep an eye out for their notes of love and know that all of us down here love and miss you so very, very much!
-Aunt Jess and Uncle Dan
Anonymous said…
We miss you and love you Baby Aaron. Today , August 4, was the surprise your mom told us about on Christmas Eve. But now, my mind tells me one thing and my heart another. Today, I choose to listen to my heart. I know you are well and in God's loving arms. We all miss you very much, especially, mommy and daddy and your grammas and grampas. We say many prayers for them. We thank God for giving you to them and that they shared you with all of us. All our love to the Young and Wolgemuth families.

Roxie & Gary
Anonymous said…
Thinking and praying for your guys today, August 4th.

CW
Anonymous said…
Baby Aaron, Nikki & Josh,

You were not forgotten as we left the beach this morning. The girls got balloons last night on the boardwalk . . .and before we left the beach to return home today, the girls let their balloons (Ariel & a Butterfly) go up over the ocean for you. It was a very special moment. We thank God that you are resting comfortably in his arms. We are praying for your mommy and daddy and Grandmas, Grandpas, Aunts & Uncles . . . that God will give them each some peace and help them through each and every day!

We love you,
Bob, Tracey, Sophie & Claire
XOXO

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